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  Why did you offer today, why did you offer? Why did you offer your heart if not to show it? Why do you say now you offered your hope, but then said you had none, over and over? Why were you so hard to analyze, but not to see me? Why did you feel free to force someone to carve and deconstruc oneself, but not yourself? Why did you ask for so much touch only to deny me? Why did you all in, but not for me? I'm so used to not needing any help, so why do you repeat that you're here being there and keeping me in check? Why do you break my defenses telling me to me reach for you only to leave me broken on the floor?

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